The One who got away~

Can't be cured.

Fri, 16 Dec 2011 09:35:09 +0800

I cried, infront of my mum this morning.. I tried to control my tears but fail… I cried so hard… For the first time after many many years, mum hugged me, comforting me while I was crying… It’s hard but it will get better in time..

Emotional.

Wed, 25 May 2011 23:20:49 +0800

I’m feeling emotional right now.. I was talking to Mother & she suddenly brought up that again.. I felt like crying. I held my tears from falling.. My eyes were all teary & I know my tone changed when I talked to her.. She felt sorry for me… I wanted to tell her that she doesn’t have to feel bad.. I will never blame her…

Another Day~

Thu, 24 Mar 2011 02:58:27 +0800

If you’re having a hard time or thinking Life has been unfair to you…my life is much more worst.. Just because I don’t say it, doesn’t mean i’m not suffering. Just because I don’t share it, doesn’t mean i don’t have problems. I just don’t want to talk about it… Sorry…not feeling good recently. Bye…

What can i do?

Sat, 19 Feb 2011 04:59:00 +0800

Sorry for not updating. lost interest in blogging. aahh i doubt there’ll be somebody reading this. anyways, so much had happened & is happening. in summary, my 2010 was awesome somehow somewhat. actually i have something to blog about. been keeping it to myself for so long. BUT i don’t want to talk about it because i don’t see the point why i should. i should try making things right instead of ranting here. yes, i keep things to myself, for some reasons. some things are better left unsaid. don’t worry, nothing serious.. just some unsettled issues. sometimes it’s better to ignore & pretend nothing happen. live life to the fullest. i’ve been trying to live my life with a positive mind. i tried my best. i always try to keep ‘unhappiness’ away from my mind. i always remind myself, ‘Things happened for some reasons’. Life is not easy. never been easy. will never be…

i still have people around me to keep me happy everyday..make me forget those unhappiness stuff.. i’m thankful for that.. really grateful for that….

again i said, don’t worry about me. i’ll be fine~ =)

Imperfection

Sat, 10 Apr 2010 01:43:38 +0800

I may not be the best friend you wish for but you’re the bestest friend I ever have…
=)

at Redang! ;D

Tue, 06 Apr 2010 22:55:02 +0800

at Redang! ;D

Featured in Noise Singapore booklet! =)

Tue, 06 Apr 2010 22:40:53 +0800

Featured in Noise Singapore booklet! =)

Quick updates!

Tue, 09 Mar 2010 22:59:17 +0800

- Yay! I got my HTC HD2 a week ago! Hehe.. ;p
- I just sold off my LG Lollipop.. Hurhur.. ;p
- 2 of my artwork were pusblished in Noise Singapore booklet! Yay!
- Going Redang next weekend! ;D

What else.. hmmm…

♡ LG Lollipop! I’m using this fone right now.. ;p Bought...

Sat, 20 Feb 2010 22:56:36 +0800

♡ LG Lollipop!
I’m using this fone right now.. ;p Bought this fone 2 weeks ago.. I ♥ it! So cute, very adorable! But I still want HTC HD2!! Hurhur! ;p
I might be selling off this phone once I buy HTC HD2! Hehe ;p

Oh!

Sat, 20 Feb 2010 22:43:00 +0800

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lzVFyWNzjtE&feature=related

Hurhur I’m addicted to this song currently.. ;p

- - -

Oh! - SNSD (Girls’ Generation)

[All] jeone aldeon naega anya
Brand New Sound
Saerowojin nawa hamgge
One More Round
Dance Dance Dance till we run this town
Oppa oppa I’ll be I’ll be Down Down Down Down

[Seohyun] Hey oppa najom bwa nareul jom barabwa
[Tiffany] cheomiya ireon nae maltu Ha!
[Yuri] meorido hago hwajangdo haetneunde
[Jessica] wae neoman nareul moreuni

[Taeyeon] dugeun dugeun gaseumi tteollyeowayo
Jakku jakku sangsangman haneun georyo
[Sooyoung] eotteohge hana kotdae nopdeon naega
[Yoona] malhago sipeo

[ALL] Oh Oh Oh Oppareul saranghae
Ah ah ah ah manhi manhihae
[Sunny] sujubeuni jebal utji mayo
[Taeyeon] jinsim ini nollijido marayo
[All + Taeyeon(loud voice)] Tto babogateun mal ppunya

[All] jeone aldeon naega anya
Brand New Sound
Saerowojin nawa hamkke
One More Round
Dance Dance Dance To Me Promise Town
Oppa oppa I’ll be I’ll be Down Down Down Down

[Jessica] oppa jamkkanman jamkkanman deureobwa
[Sunny] jakkuhan yaegineun malgo
[Sooyoung] dongsaengeuroman saenggakhajineun mara
[Hyoyeon] ilnyeondwimyeon huhoe halgeol

[Tiffany] molla molla nae mameun jeonhyeo molla
Nunchieoptge jangnanman chineungeoryo
[Hyoyeon] eotteohge hana I cheoreoptneun sarama
[Seohyun] deureobwa jeongmal

[ALL] Oh Oh Oh Oppareul saranghae
Ah ah ah ah manhi manhihae
[Yuri] sujubeuni jebal utji mayo
[Yoona] jinsim ini nollijido marayo
[All] tto geureomyeon nan uljido molla

[All] jeone aldeon naega anya
Brand New Sound
Mwonga dareun oneulmaneun tteugeoun nan
Down Down ireojima hwaman na
Oppa oppa idaeroneun NoNoNoNo

[Jessica] Tell me boy boy love it it it it it ah!

[All] Oh Oh Oh Oppareul saranghae
Ah ah ah ah manhi manhihae
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oppareul saranghae
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah manhi manhihae

[Taeyeon] tto babo gateun malppunya

[All] Oh Oh Oh Oh
Ah ah ah ah
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oppareul saranghae
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah manhi manhihae
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oppareul saranghae
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah manhi manhi Oh

Quick update ;p

Sat, 20 Feb 2010 20:19:47 +0800

I want to update this blog but I don’t know what to update on.. ;p
I’ll come back once I got inspiration or something interesting to blog! ;p

Kesian eh, berabuk! Hehe ;p

2010 already?

Sun, 03 Jan 2010 01:26:00 +0800

Happy New Year Yall! ;D

Time past so fast! I just turned 23 like a week ago ahaks! ;p

Turning 23 wasn’t that bad.. ;p Thank you all, every single one of you, that made me a happy 23-year-old! =* Love You All!! <3 =))

2009 has past, a new year has come. What’s in store for me in 2010 ? Only God knows..

I just hope to spend less and save more..
I should start eating more.. Or maybe eat less ? Hurhurrr ;p
What else…

I think that’s about all..
Each year I listed down new year resolutions but never really fulfill them.. ;p

Happy 2010 Everyone! May you all have a great year ahead!

Avalon

Thu, 31 Dec 2009 00:58:47 +0800

I never felt this way before
I’m scared but still want more
Love will always find its time
I’ve been waiting for so long
For this moment sweet to come
Just one kiss and you’ll be fine

I want you to be my Avalon
The sweet unknown
Come on over and take on me
I want you to see my Avalon
The love has grown
From here to eternity

You’re a mystery
What you are to me
Is everything that I am not
Take me by my hand
Oh, make me understand
Make me understand
Love goes on and on and on…
Love goes on and on and on…

Second time around .

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 22:57:26 +0800

Why, I’m not excited for my birthday.
I’m more excited to see SAM WORTHINGTON in Avatar! Can’t wait!

What's on your mind?

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 22:43:39 +0800

The one thing I’m not looking forward to this month, my birthday.

Now...

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 20:31:21 +0800

I have HTC Hero! Thank You Mak & Ayah! ;D
I have Sony Vaio W netbook! Thank You Maslena! ;D
I got myself a new mp4! Yay! But I hate the earphones.. hurhur!

Now… what else do I need ?

what am I leaving when I'm done here ?

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 23:31:00 +0800

Hoho. I’ve been neglecting this blog.. kesian! ;p
It’s either there’s nothing much to update or I’m just plain LAZY. Haha!

I have a Twitter account and guess what, I’ve stopped updating there too. ahaks~

Anyways, today I’m on leave! Yay! Went to NSC in the morning and back home, cleaned my room! Changed new bedsheet(Sister bought for me yay)!

So how’s fasting? My menses came on 2nd week of Ramadan.. I didn’t fast for 7 days! Alhamdulillah, only 7 days! ;p
Alot of temptations… Many times patience/tolerance level being tested!
Been feeling very sleepy at work almost everyday! ;p

Been spending alot of time at home, with mum.. Helping mum preparing food for breaking of fast.. I made 3 types of kuih raya, with a little help from mum! Thanks Mother! ;D

Been spending alot of $$$ on foooood and the preparation for Raya..
I’m left with 50$ in my POSB laaa! Hurhur!
Nevermind.. UOB still got money! ;p

Just got my bonus last month. Alhamdulillah! =)

Tomorrow, going for my monthly ortho.. I’m so prepared for another week of ulcers. -.-

Things been good so far.. Alhamdulillah..
I’m accepting well with the things happening.. Things like work, my skin issue and much more..

Work is tiring. Really. I just hope to master whatever skills/knowledge asap.. I want to do work worry-free with no much problems….

Already a year now, I’ve been visiting NSC. So much money spent. It just won’t go away. Sighs. I’m not giving up. I won’t. It will get better, InsyaAllah..

For those who are curious, No, I’m not looking and not contacting any boy friends.
Nobody in mind/heart. I think it would be much better to focus on settling my skin issue first. I know I’m not getting any younger. I do want a bf and get married! Haha. Time will tell.. ;p

Sometimes, I wondered why this happened to me. Why me? Why it didn’t happen to my sister or brothers ? Why I got it? Why me?
But what’s the point ? It already happened, no point brooding over it. Should just think of solutions and get it cured…
I just hope it will get be cured soon.. =)

Was talking wif mum about this. I can see from her eyes that she felt sorry and sad for me.. Don’t be sad Mother! I’m not sad and sorry for myself anymore.. It will be okay.. I know it will! =) InsyaAllah.

And she went on talking about her trying to abort me..
(if you remember, I did mentioned about this in my previous blog long time ago)
Yes, she was trying to abort me not because she wanted it but my great-grandmother told her to do so. My parents don’t earn much… My dad was a lift technician, he used to bring home $900 per month.. My mum used to work in a factory, she didn’t earn much too.. At that point of time, my mum already had my sister. So nenek told mum that their earnings not enough for 5 of them(my parents,sister and my great-grandparents). My mum drank alot of jamu/tonic/whatever that was given to her, to get rid of me. She said the drinks were all hot and heaty.. She tried alot of means and ways to get rid of me. My dad wanted to keep me..so he changed job. He went to work at Geylang market with his friend’s help. He started a small business.. He didn’t earn much but mum said enough for them to go by with..
My mum went for a check-up, the gynae said the foetus was okay and can continue with the pregnancy… I was already 2 months plus going to 3 months. Mum told me that she worried that all those jamu might harm me and cause me to be cacat. Thank God, the jamu didn’t do any harm on me.. If not, I won’t be here. I will be aborted long time ago…. I’m just glad my parents didn’t agree with the abortion. Anak adalah pembawa rezeki. I believed in that. =)

I’m the heaviest among my siblings.. My mum said must be the jamu she drank.. ;p
And she wondered could it be the ‘whatever things’ she consumed long time ago caused me to have skin problems.. I wondered too.. Only Allah knows why..

I’m thankful and grateful that I’m born in this family.. =)
I know my parents work really hard for us, for almost 24 years.. I can’t repay them.. The love and care they’ve given us: priceless. Money can’t buy all that.

I don’t always get what I want.. really..
I have to earn it to get what I want..

I want to save money but each time I put aside some $$$ for saving, the money surely will be used for something else. -.- Resistance level very low heh.

Some people are just born to be lucky. Lucky in love. Lucky physically. Lucky mentally. Lucky in financial. Lucky in almost everything. Lucky for being almost perfect. Just lucky. Lucky. Luck.

I had 3 Swensens’ mooncake just now! Yummy! ;D Milo, Hazelnut Latte & Durian!
Like finally heh. ;p

Hmmm…what else should I blog about ? ;p

I miss doing vectors. Hurhur. I need inspiration, time and good quality photos! ;p
Online on FB almost every night. But now, I felt FB is no longer exciting/interesting.. Heh.

This is a very random entry. I don’t know what to blog about laa. ;p
I think I shall end this entry already ahaks!

Okay, I will end this post now…. wait!

I want to say this…..I want a very religious boyfriend! ;D
Hehe.

Okay bye!

New hair!

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 12:05:41 +0800

Curls & Highlights yesterday! hurhur. $254 gone! ;p

;p

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 23:38:12 +0800

Dreamt that life was Beauty.. Woke up & found that life was Duty

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 23:59:10 +0800

You called me radeeeeee…. for the 2nd time after a very long time. You remembered that phrase.. =) I missed you so much laaaa..